School's, Exam's, They're OVER

Bismillah

Assalamualaikum

today, tonight, this moment, i really don't know how to start writing. when i think about how I've wrote so many things, i figure I'm the kind of girl who loves to write and i know it will take a fortune for me to admit something.

its 1.30 in the morning. if i want to tell about 6th December, should i say yesterday or today? i don't care how it goes for this time. I'm just gonna write and just write till I'm tired of seeing all the alphabets. 

okay, I'll begin with today, -

today was 6th December 2012. it was my very last day of being at school as a student. its my last day of SPM. when I'm sitting here now- writing about it, i have to admit that i feel completely weird bringing this up. i don't want school to end. no matter how worst things are at school, i wouldn't want it to end. well, who does?its the last day and i don't know why, but i don't feel any much relieve or anything though. maybe I'm not ready yet. but, no body's ready. anyways, i sat on Ekonomi Asas today. i have to say that I'm very satisfied with my answers. I've never ever ever did my very best in this subject. i found it very complicated like account. but i did take it anyway. well, I'm just the kind who's really not afraid of taking a risk. I'm really not. no matter what i did, I'm not afraid of the risk. i just don't and don't know why.

after we all finish and step outside the hall, we all was like - "i cant believe its finally over" "ssspppmmmm is over" - they all are like that, but, i feel worst. i feel sad. i really did feel horrified and miserably sad. I'm sad, i have plans to say something to that special someone but it didn't happen because i was scared of leaving the school. i walked as fast as i can to ayah car, so that i wouldn't have to say goodbye and all the best bla bla bla. i hate saying goodbyes, and I'm not good at it. when i wanna say it, I'll cry. it happened . haha. i really did cry. how embarrassing. you're 17 and your aunt still call you baby and grandparents still think you're a little kid. how can i be growing up like that right? but, at least I'm always honest with them, and tell the truth. so that there will be no misunderstandings or whatsoever. and mummy, I'm sorry, but I'm very honest with you now days, i really wanna be ok with step dad, i tried and still trying. :) i hope you know.

oh, did i tell i called mum after the first paper? yeah, i really did, its hard to believe right? haha, its her birthday. her 40th birthday. ( Happy Birthday mummy, i loves you :) ) i called and we really talked. we talked about adik babyy and what she was doing , who's there with her. and ofcoz, she never miss this "come over. then you can play with adik baby" . the thing about my family, they all knew how much i love love love love babies. seriously, i love kid. like seriously like i want thousands of them on my own. hahaha. I'm being ridiculous. either ways, i did wish her. we talked for about 10-15 minute. then i have to hung up . i ran out of coins. i was using public phone fyi. yeah yeah, you'd be wondering why i didn't used my phone? well, I'm a good kid. HAHAHAHAHA good lah sangat kau. naahh, i just don't like showing people these and that. let it be just me and Allah :)

okay, after ayah pick me up and went to mosque, i didn't do anything. like seriously, nothing. hahahah, i did tweeted a few (by few i means more than 10 tweets) times. its all about EXAM'S OVER really. then, i know people will get annoyed with me, i left. honestly, i never left. i just leave it there on its own. hahaha. then, i turn on my laptop and see two movies that evening. first i watched Rise Of The Guardians then i watched Ride Like Hell. both of it are amazing. so amazing that i almost cry. especially Rise of The Guardians. you guys, really should see it. so touching. it teaches you to believe in yourself, trust your instinct, be you, just about everything la. trust me, watch it. Ride Like Hell was a bit harsh and yaaa know, full of bad words and stuff. but it will definitely teach you something. like how a single mother who's willing to work 3 jobs at a time just to make sure her son is save. how pleasant the story. even with its rudeness, it still contain something wonderful. 

and now, here i am, writing about something i shouldn't be writing. I'm always out of topic. I'm suppose to get up early tomorrow. have so many plans with my adik and ayah. you know every thing's been going so fast and everyone are like TAMAK nak kerja and all, i always thought of this,. why ha? why? cant they slow down a bit? aren't they tired? they should relax a bit. I'm just saying man. seriously, after all this exams and all, they should calm down and breath , oohh man. i should get over it. i don't think it will cross their mind anyway. i think I'm done - for now :D thanks for reading. i know its bored as always. but anyways, thanks. till we meet again, assalamualaikum 

-ArinaHawa

Not that choosy la ~

Seriously, this is jut from my imagination okay. But, some of it are inspired by ayah ;D

Kay, enough chitchat.

Here goes ~

He must be real
He must be a man
He must be the one who never slip his prayer - like NEVER
He must be responsible and grateful
He must put his family first
He must love kids
He must not be smoker
He can stand my Ayah's killing words
He must have his own sense of style
He must be honest no matter how bad things turn to be
He must be sincere with everything he do
He must know how to make me laugh even if its just telling me I'm stupid
He must know how to cook
He should know how to take care or his family
He must be a bit psycho but not too much
He should be an understanding person
He knows how to spend money wisely
He must know how to use a bat
He should know how the washing machine works. Hahahah
He want to be with me
He have to be close to his mother
He must have high level of patience because that's the proof he loves me
And ,
He definitely and must be only himself :)

So far, those are the character that pop out of my mind right now. That's what I can think of.

Demanding gila tahu! Kay. Bila bila je boleh tambah. ;) that's all. Assalamualaikum

Sincerely,
ArinaHawa

Out of TOPIC

Bismillah

Assalamualaikum. It's 12.15 am. And I'm not asleep yet. How pathetic right? It's like there's nothing's going on tomorrow. I guess I just have Ayah's behavior than. What can I say? Hahaha, I pretty much grew up before his eyes. Every day, every hours, every minutes, every second, he watch me and my adiks grow up to be someone. All I want right now, is you to get some rest and let me handle 'em. I'll be the best big sister ever, even with my attitude and style. I know they don't really like my style. As if I care. But if you don't like it, then I'll care. :)

Yesterday, both of these guy ask me who's my boyfriend. Im proud to say that I don't have a boyfriend and you know what, I don't want one. Plus, I don't need one, for now. So I've change! I grew up, I figure there's more than just being happy and whatever. And if I don't have friend because of who I am, then I just don't need any. I want people to be my friend for who I am and not how I great my behavior are and how I love to eat or for what I wear. Just be my friend because I'm me. I don't really ask much after all I've asked.

I'm totally out of the topic man. I'm always like that. Dang it! -,- I'm so annoying with myself. Lets just check out my next post Kay.

double date? definitely NOT!

Bismillah

assalamualaikum.

arrrhhh *yawning* ~ yaawwww, what is up people? what's what's what's up? hahahah, im having this sleepy moment here. so im kinda dying man 0-o anyways, im just gonna add something beautiful for today. its gonna be short, but everybody knows how long itll be right? well, i promise, it would not be that long. hohoh . 

hari ni, aku bangun lambat , so rasa agak blur and seriously tak fresh langsung weh! eh, silap silap, abang Su kata tak baik kata "weh", hahah so, seriously tak fresh lahhhh, hahaha,. then, bangun je terfikir pasal Abang Su punya wedding. im not planning to go at the first place, but at the end, im exactly sitting there with my Baju Kurung and sneakers on like a boss. *ignore the sneakers* *i love it so much* *i'll be slightly and horrifyingly happy if anyone generous enough buy me a new pair of it* hahaha, relax, im just joking. pukul 12.15 ayah hantar pergi rumah Su, aku rasa sangat "chicken little" tahu? hahaha, *adik tengah cakap pasal chicken little sebab tu aku guna , anyway, tak ada perkataan yang sesuai untuk digunakan . HA! macam mana ah, aku tak nak letak perkataan HAHA dekat ending sentences, macam terbiasa lah pulak . pathetic -,- 

okay, back to the boring story that turn up to be an awesome day. then, time tengah lepak punya lepak, swwuuuhshhhh - swaashshhhh - grrrr -huuuuuuhrrruuu *hujan lebat dengan tiba tiba* hahahaha, sorry aku tak tahu macam mana nak speel bunyi hujan yang lebah tuhh. so weird. then , that time, zalika was busy texting a friend of us, im gonna name Purple because he wears purple tshirt today,. then , we walk to his house, sesaje bak kata budak budak sekarang. eh? jap, aku bukan budak budak sekarang ke? lantak lah, janji aku bukan macam budak budak sekarang.lepas tu, hujan dah berhenti sikit dah reda sikit, macam drizzling gitu, kiteorang pun boleh la jalan pergi rumah kawan sorang tu. 

then, jalan punya jalan, sampai la. haplak betul si zalika tu, boleh pulak dia suruh tunggu kat luar, aku dah la nak balik cepat time tuh, nak study weeehhhh, eh! lahhhh, nak exam besok. hahaha, panjang lah pulak, sorry eh. then, si kawan tu pun keluar lah dengan bff dia mirul alias tuh. aku rasa senang nak ingat bila kata mirul alias, aku tak tahu nak letak nama apa yg bagi aku senang ingat. then, dah dalam 40minutes berdiri tegak macam menyanyi lagu negaraku kat depan rumah kawan kiteorang tu, kiteorang pun decided nak lepak salam sampai ayah zalika habis kerja. aku nak balik and zalika pun nak balik, tapi zalika takde transport, so aku sebagai kawan , kena lah teman, maklumlah sekrang nih banyak manusia yang pathetic and ada asshole attitude kat tengah jalan. risau pula aku. 

bila kiteorang semua dicided nak lepak salam, aku ajak zalika balik rumah dulu, aku nak salijn baju, yelah kan, aku pakai baju kurung dengan sneakers je pun so tak berapa confortable. nak buat macam mana , aku kan tomboyish sikit. terpaksalah, dah balik rumah salin baju bebagai, kiteorang pun gerak lah ke Salam 1 cafe tu. sampai samapai je dekat cafe tuh, kiteorang duduk and order some drinks, well, i ordered my favorite awesome iced lemon tea and zalika ordered some orange juice. mirul tak ada kat situ, cause dia hantar adik dia pergi skate port aka THE EMPTY SHABBY AND UNSAVORY BUILDING! HAHAHA jahat gila aku, takde lah teruk sangat sebenarnya :D gebang je lebih. 5 minutes later mirul pun sampai, time tu lah mulanya borak panjang lebar tak ingat yang esok exam agama. memang 2 jam jugak la kiteorang bertapak dekat situ. panas pungkok aku, ish ish, apa dah perempuan cakap macam ni kan :( im improving myself kay., Astagfirullahhalazim. arina arina -,- 

then 2 jam dah berlalu macam macam kiteorang borakkan. penat mulut aku cakap, aku diam la dalam 15minutes, haha, pathetic gila bunyinya. dalam borak tu, ada la dorang tanya pasal whos im dating, what my oppinion about these and those, and i practically asked them about adib la jugak. ada jugak sentuh pasal arshad or whatever some else things. *ehem ehem* *adik dah bagi signal suruh stop* ish, adik aku ni pun . sabar ahhh, aku potong lah ye., at the end, everybody had fun. oh, did i mention mirul yang belanja? hahahahahha, part best ialah, we all bet on something okay. teruk betul tahu! hahahahha, tapi Alhamdulillah, semua pun seronok even aku and zalika yang tak sedar diri nak ambil exam esok. :D okay lah, sampai situ je lah. zalika hantar aku balik then dia pun balik laaa. sampai rumah terbongkang jugak, sebelum grandparents datang secara menyejut. dah. stop. tak payah cerita hawa. okay, till the next post. assalamualaikum oh, and thanks for spending an inch of your time reading. walaupun tak interesting. aku tahu ade yang selalu singgah tu :D

sincerely,

ArinaHawa

New Hijrah, New Year, New beginning, New

Bismillah

Assalamualaikum.

Hari ni tahun baru. Awal muharam kan? well, as you all, the one's whom read my pathetic blog, noticed, I've deleted every single post that I've posted since one in the half year ago. i figure if i wanna be someone new and improve, i should improve everything. easy to say, I'm just gonna start over . wouldn't be that hard since i have lost every single trust and some friends. besides, high school almost over right. its not that I'm not glad, but, i truly want high school to be more than graduating and saying goodbye and "let's go our own way" . i want it to continue, even though i know high school cant continue in the same form. everythings' gonna change. that's why sometimes i just don't understand why people cant move on and expecting the same thing every time. people have brain , they should know things doesn't happen twice. TIME PASSED BY AND THINGS CHANGE. that you cant change. right? so here comes the new entry for the new year. things gonna be different and trust me, i will be better :) just wish me all the best in my life. i always wish and pray for everyone. even if i don't know that everyone. I'm deeply and honestly sorry for every single little or big things i had done to anyone. I'm just being me. mean, ridiculous, awesome, stubborn, harsh, pathetic, etc. haha. inshaAllah, till then. the next post. :) assalamualaikum

sincerely, 

Arina Hawa