Assalamualaikum
First of all, I have to
say, that I did not want to post anything. But then, my feelings and my
emotions kept changing. And now I'm pissed off with both those two that are
mine. Yesterday, I finished my last paper for finals. Statistics, and
Alhamdulillah, I think so far I can do it, even though I know I did a lot of
stupid careless errors and mistakes. Apa apa pun, semuanya dah end. It’s the
end of my first semester in here, which is where I don't want people to know,
even though I know, many dah tahu aku belajar sini. First semester begun with a
hatred feeling but Alhamdulillah, it ended with a grateful feeling. I know I
can get what I want now, and I know I can do it, but now, there's pretty much
nothing I can do to make things right, because, I know, I have wasted my time. A
lot. Tangguh tangguh lagi, now merasa la. Well, aku tak kesah sangat la, sebab
it is my mistake. So face it with an open heart and let it go *let it go, let
it go...* *berlakon frozen kejap* hahaha. Anyways, lagi aku lama kat paragraph pertama
ni lagi banyak la aku merepek dan ulang benda yang sama. So let’s just move on
to the next paragraph shall we..
It’s the end of first
semester and the beginning of my second semester break laaaa. Hellooooo, ohhh
yeahhh oohhh yeahhh *lompat lompat* *pusing pusing* *guling guling * and terasa
over la pulak, padahal kat cc kamsis ni je pun. Eeeii, over gila kaannnnnnnn, I
know right *cakap dengan diri sendiri* ehh, sejuk la pulak kat dalam ni. Cepat tulis,
cepat habis. Okay cuti sem ni aku dah plan nak buat apa dari berbulan sebelum
cuti lagi, haha. Nampak tak, nak cuti je tau, belajar dah la tidak pun, tahu la
kau arina time results keluar nanti. Kau tunggu je lah. Hahaha. Anyways, aku
dah plan nak kerja and beli phone. That’s the first thing la. Dan aku nak kerja
gila gila. Serious. Tapi, the plan changed. Daddy offered me a job. That is
awesomeeeee, cume gaji sikit je la, tak banyak mana. Because the job is so
awesome, i did not think much bout the pay I’m gonna get. The job is babysitting
muhammad firdaus danial!!!! Yeayyyyy! Nampak tak excited-nya aku??? Haaaa!! Korang
ape tau haaaa? *bajet mcm adik2 jap* orang yang gila baby and budak macam aku
ni memang akan seronok gila wehhhh! Hahaha, i can’t wait to get married and
have KIDS, eh , tiba tiba. Haa? Continue, mana tadi? Haa! Aku tak sabar la nak
jaga "toe toe" walaupun aku tak dapat phone. Tapi, aku plan nak jage
adik one month je, the other month tu, aku rasa aku nak kerja gila tuttt kat
mana mana kedai yang aku suka yang ada vacancy. Yeay! That’s my plan so far. InshaAllah,
kalau boleh, boleh la. Kalau tak boleh, nak buat macam mana kan. Kita hanya
boleh merancang, Allah yang tentukan.
Macam hari ni, or plan
yang dah tak jadi minggu ni, it’s a "wow" plan, tapi tak jadi, so
macam mana? Ade hikmah disebaliknya. Sebab tu Rasulullah SAW suruh kita cakap inshaAllah.
Besok inshaAllah aku balik bukit beruntung! Yeayyyy! Hopefully ayah can fetch
me, or else I have to take the taxi that will definitely charge me an amount of
money that I can use to eat for a week kat kamsis. Hahaha. Apa la aku merepek
ni. Dah la nak balik besok, pastu tak sedar sedar nak packing lagi tu. MashaAllah
arina hawa, pemalas *imagine muhammad ashraf cakap* hahaha. Okay I’m gonna miss
him. Guys, budak2 class, I know, I make mistakes, I’m sorry if my words break
your heart and hurt you. I’m sorry. I know there are many things and incident
that had occured in our class that kinda break us. I’m kinda sad, because those
stupid unreasonable thing, kelas berpecah. Macam tuttttt . Pardon my language
though. Haa, I’m sorry guys, I hope you guys forgive me. I’m gonna miss you
guys. Walaupun 2 bulan je.
Dari number 1 till 41, I’m
sorry. I hope you guys forgive me. With all my bad manners, all my misbehave
attitude, bad conversation, bad words, hurting people's feeling, being sarcastic, forget to
say thanks and Sorry, and how I did not talk to each and everyone in our class,
I, ARINA HAWA BINTI MOHD
ROSDI, AM VERY SORRY FOR WHAT I DID. AND I HOPE TO BE FORGIVEN. AND THANKS FOR
BEING MY FRIEND :)
Walaupun gaduh dengan
lecture semua, Alhamdulillah, everything went well. Good or less good, I’m grateful
for everything that had happened. Ada hikmah apa yang jadi tu. and Muhammad Ashraf, Thanks a alot :')
Sincerely,
Arina
Hawa
